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 A memory I can think of is when my mom would either make breakfast or clean on a Sunday. Those days included 80's and 90's R & B music like New Addition, Michael Jackson, Whitney Houston, and mostly Prince. I would smell pancakes and bacon coming down the stairs, and there would be my mom, just singing along, reminiscing about her time before I came along. I remember that sometimes I would get annoyed with her singing or playing music loudly in the morning because I enjoyed silence more than noise. These moments felt normal to me, even though it annoyed me a lot more than it amused me. I don't think me, and my mom have anything in common at all. She is more talkative, loud, and a lot faster to anger, while I am shy, quiet, and patient. It makes me feel very different from her because I feel like she doesn't get me or understand me. Maybe she understands me when I go through what she went through as a teenager growing up, but she doesn't get me anymore than that. I think the only way we could be the same is by our looks. There were a lot of people that said that I looked like my mom when I was younger and sometimes still. Other than that, we are completely different. Even though she really wants to be the person that I go to for everything and talk to her about all of my problems and troubles in this world, I still don't think of her as a go-to person you "can tell". I just don't trust her or myself to just talk about anything with. I never felt comfortable talking about myself with my mom. It isn't just her that I don't trust, it's people in general. I don't trust friends like I used to, I don't really trust my family, I don't trust myself. I just don't. I can't bring myself to talk to anyone like I'm so comfortable with them like that anymore. I used to have someone, but I don't speak to them anymore and quite frankly, it's better that way.